tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-43909050319610293432024-03-05T07:11:49.407-05:00Starting OverA blog I started to put down my own thoughts and feelings as they come to me. Sometimes just weird sometimes heartfelt but always me and always my thoughts. Hope you enjoyMnemosynehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14220396236890461017noreply@blogger.comBlogger35125truetag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4390905031961029343.post-83870675248238886352010-04-21T23:05:00.002-04:002010-04-21T23:15:03.111-04:00Alonethis
isn't
what
i had
wanted
i didn't
see
the outcome
before it
was too
late.
now
i sit
and watch
fate
take it's
place
this
isn't
how it
should
have
happened
you
without
me
it's an
abomination
is
there
no
redemption?
no
salvation?
i'm
begging
screaming
on bended
knees
all
that
remains
of
us
of
you
of
me
is
memories.
A
hallow
emptiness
fills
loves
place
close
my eyes
to
see
your
face
wrap
my
arms
to
feel
your
touchMnemosynehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14220396236890461017noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4390905031961029343.post-18548964122074258272010-01-18T09:18:00.003-05:002010-01-18T09:29:42.020-05:00LostThe heart beats on as the tears fall down
A lonely shadow on the ground
A step toward the sun, fall into the moon
A love gone way to soon
Twisted lies and shattered hearts
A mistake that caused us to part
Lost in the middle caught in a draft
Shards of my heart left in the aftermath
A quick get away a new life already started
The soul not cold for a dearly departed
Cherished and adored so quick to fade away
A heart not meant to capture ready not ready to stay
Lost in the past no looking back
A love I tried to give, one I let slack
Lost in the heart buried in the tears
My nightmares come true, all the fearsMnemosynehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14220396236890461017noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4390905031961029343.post-33696419954144779182009-12-30T01:26:00.009-05:002009-12-30T01:50:05.782-05:00Road Ahead<div align="left">I walk a lonesome path, if anybody was to follow.
I live a lonesome life, if anybody was to look.
I'm a lonesome person, if anybody wanted to know.
I have love in my heart that I allow.
When the words were softly spoken, my world shook.
What you see isn't always what it is, to you it may not always show.
The followers, the lookers, the nosey people around.
They would all be wrong as I sit with this smile on my face.
Yes, beneath me one pair of footprints on the ground.
I'm never really alone in any place.
My thoughts are always shared, my love always given back.
My heart full of song, my mind is at ease.
I don't need you to give me your slack.
My baby loves me and for you that is just a tease.
Let them follow, let them look, let them pry inside of me.
When their mouth drops open and their mind starts turning.
It will be only then that I really let them see.
For lonesome I am not, there is a future I am yearning.
I am never alone, I have love inside.
I am never alone, I have a hand to hold.
Side by side and hand in hand.
We walk a path unknown to you but with heads held up with all our pride.
Together to the future, so bright, so full of hope and oh so bold.
Don't give me your pitty or try to advise.
Trust, that when I speak of this in my life.
There are no moments when you hear sad cries.
For I am taken, I am SOMEbody's wife.
The road ahead unknown and unpaved.
The road behind full of bumps and turns.
Our love is strong it shall never fade.
Walk your own path, and may your too learn.</div><div align="left">What being loved is really about.</div><div align="left">When you do, then you shall see.</div><div align="left">What this life of love means to me.</div>Mnemosynehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14220396236890461017noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4390905031961029343.post-7582086959057810142009-11-23T22:13:00.002-05:002009-11-23T22:17:30.327-05:00WishingAs I look at the majestic sky
As tears fall from my eyes
I know you and I were meant to be
I only wish I could make you see
How much your love means to me
I wish I could walk up to you
And whisper the words that lovers do
But now I sit here sad and blue
Wishing I could be with you.Mnemosynehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14220396236890461017noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4390905031961029343.post-60252149123405292412009-11-12T19:28:00.002-05:002009-11-12T19:47:48.452-05:00InspirationWhen I need inspiration
I look into your eyes
So full of love and adoration
Every day a new surprise
Your gentle ways and caring touch
Melt my heart to the core
Hoping you feel my love as much
Each touch leaving me wanting more
The soft sensual of your voice
Rings deep inside my mind
Leaving you is not a choice
Moving a head and not behind
You are my inspiration
My light in the darkest of times
Full of love and admiration
Easing my heart and my mindMnemosynehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14220396236890461017noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4390905031961029343.post-8701588841085739972009-11-11T02:23:00.003-05:002009-11-11T02:40:33.415-05:00Gut Reactions?There are times in your life when you are overcome by emotions that you just react instead of thinking. Sometimes that is good, like when you get the overwhelming desire to kiss your lover and before you know it you have them in your arms in a passionate embrace kissing deeply. Other times, your reaction could hurt not only your partner but yourself. I know this, I felt this. I've been through so much with my partner, so many ups and down and trivial things happened and through it all, my faith and my love never wavered never faultered. Everything we have been through always made us stronger together. Yet every now and then I let my emotions run before I can catch up to them and pull them back into order. Out of my mouth flies the first that pops into my head and heart and it isn't pretty. My first instinct when something really seems to hurt me deep inside, is to run. I've learned not to run as a first option, I've not wanted to run in a long time. Now if only I could get my mouth to stay shut when something hurts deep down, I might be able to stop their hurt from happening. I am not so much worried about my own hurt, I am pretty good at keeping it inside and not letting it ruin the moment or day, most times.. other times, well.. it isn't pretty. I usually end up questioning myself and doubting myself more than ever. Sometimes saying sorry doesnt seem like enough, its those moments when I wonder how I can fix their heart make them better make them see, I love them and need them and can't live with out them.
One day..Mnemosynehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14220396236890461017noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4390905031961029343.post-4457967178215391362009-11-08T06:11:00.002-05:002009-11-08T06:26:26.346-05:00I dont even know where to start, first let me say the one who holds my heart means more to me that anything else, not only does she hold my hand and tell me all the wonderful things any woman would love to hear but I have to question my own thoughts and feelings because tonight i sat and I cried and cried and hurt and hurt and nothing that I could do could stop the pain i felt swelling up in m chest, actions speak louder than words and the smallest action echos through the valleys and hills and resonates in my head.. what would it be like if I were you and you were me and I was doing what you do how would you feel? would you question where my love laid and why i had to do the things I do if I always said you were enough? I've given everything I possibly can considering the circumstances, I have always let you be, what would yu do if you were me? So much has happened tonight so many bricks have been crushed in my wall, all in all... at the end of the day I am alone and your actions always speak louder than your words, no matter what I do will I ever EVER be enough or will yu always find a reason to be another, you always need to be somebody, when are you going to be just mine? That is all I ever want, to be just mine, but as life goes on and days pass by, I lose hope that I will ever be enough for anybody, even you no matter what you say, actions speak louder than words, they always have, they always will, even as my heart breaks in a million pieces and yu pick them up and put them back together, each little lie, each little touch to somebody else, everything you do, makes me feel like the biggest fool. I loved you then, I love you now. I will Love you all our tomorrows, I just want to know, what would you do if you were me and I were you doing what YOU do... Actions even the smallest action speaks louder than any wordMnemosynehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14220396236890461017noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4390905031961029343.post-44951280974813742132009-11-03T15:30:00.004-05:002009-11-03T15:44:31.660-05:00What do you do?What do you do when you feel your world slipping away? Your heart feels shattered and your soul is no longer your own? Who do you run to, who do you talk to? Do you pray it all gets better and easier? Do you return to a past and tell them what a mistake it was to let them go, do you tell them what happened and ask to have them back in your life? What do you do, where do you go? Whose holding you when you have nothing left to hold on to?Mnemosynehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14220396236890461017noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4390905031961029343.post-28353839284416520802009-11-02T17:30:00.013-05:002009-12-02T17:08:05.618-05:00I..wish, want, dream ListNormally I never state what it is I want or would like to have. I normally make sure that the kids get all they want. This year, I have decided to make a dream list for a few reasons.
1. Lost weight, need sexier clothes (yay me!)
2. It is time that I do for myself as well as for my children
3. It is my year
So that being said.. this blog will be filled with things I want, not necessarily need, just want. If I can I will attach photos of things.
First off since I lost 35 lbs I want new clothes and yes, I have found some to start me off with the sexy feelings I am aiming for. They are froma store called Torrid, it deals in clothes for the bigger women in life. I may have lost 35 lbs but I am far from the super model type as far as body goes.
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhEoyVB9RSTXVeGELxR-roggMSztvhQtY02TxKGuFWZgF4ypHjHdi63RXJlLlt6IAm7CA2z88Vh0XSLpVgbjrPtS7RCYtjAHJjoNtDOAlN8seWdxVTgXc-_zVXqu5z3VCGLxGJ5_RqNMUA/s1600-h/belt1.jpg"><img style="WIDTH: 46px; HEIGHT: 68px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5399639077687961378" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhEoyVB9RSTXVeGELxR-roggMSztvhQtY02TxKGuFWZgF4ypHjHdi63RXJlLlt6IAm7CA2z88Vh0XSLpVgbjrPtS7RCYtjAHJjoNtDOAlN8seWdxVTgXc-_zVXqu5z3VCGLxGJ5_RqNMUA/s320/belt1.jpg" /></a>this is an halter/belt
<span style="color:#cc0000;">New Addition to list:::</span>
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgjMXWqVGoeAKfHdAAIONbJyDodeAuU9lAZ-Fma5a8Z81Q5qNfCKstIqYKcVRB7Ma9xp5nKncvixHPKvrPdKC7jXienS0oX1UHJOljO40rVJmLXIbehd6etYpKQnwfRYEA8dD-spPkJm0M/s1600/Newdress1.jpg"><img style="WIDTH: 137px; HEIGHT: 189px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5404522391417922786" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgjMXWqVGoeAKfHdAAIONbJyDodeAuU9lAZ-Fma5a8Z81Q5qNfCKstIqYKcVRB7Ma9xp5nKncvixHPKvrPdKC7jXienS0oX1UHJOljO40rVJmLXIbehd6etYpKQnwfRYEA8dD-spPkJm0M/s320/Newdress1.jpg" /></a>Not sure what it is lately but I am loving these types of dresses!
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgEo7dcdTc5Viz-iU8TaaWzbXjG5lUv3AUQ_8yFpRaHu4YOZ4rOT84vKG7aNQptMdoeXrrZwCz36wbEdu6pt6JWKm-p_XbCnrVWs8ok7ttP46_k1IICIcLV455YRO5lTTly-_GwT3MENNU/s1600-h/Dress2.jpg"><img style="WIDTH: 135px; HEIGHT: 207px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5399639610619323874" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgEo7dcdTc5Viz-iU8TaaWzbXjG5lUv3AUQ_8yFpRaHu4YOZ4rOT84vKG7aNQptMdoeXrrZwCz36wbEdu6pt6JWKm-p_XbCnrVWs8ok7ttP46_k1IICIcLV455YRO5lTTly-_GwT3MENNU/s320/Dress2.jpg" /></a>again, who wouldnt feel sexy?
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEho2hH-P0Ke9j53Ehm9Na8BD-OCPV83pJSeM69OwwUBs4aBhOw0H33YOgIsgei_M6BZGNQ9l_0XPDGSQyoTRinXHfSNdqYWpg04PyrkdcMD116YPFLQqrw2sRbpby2sUC-uwA8zLkBS6Cc/s1600-h/top3.jpg"><img style="WIDTH: 86px; HEIGHT: 144px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5399640547601734322" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEho2hH-P0Ke9j53Ehm9Na8BD-OCPV83pJSeM69OwwUBs4aBhOw0H33YOgIsgei_M6BZGNQ9l_0XPDGSQyoTRinXHfSNdqYWpg04PyrkdcMD116YPFLQqrw2sRbpby2sUC-uwA8zLkBS6Cc/s320/top3.jpg" /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEixOKTjZhBCuFrMresDLG1wIGm_jKsjRnj9AXZBFGWSm50a94R8hNJn6IE4etCBlP5tywXeCDKzz2WUse6D8JG08nFrF8hQNTOCmavPyA5sAQBAkJs6K0Lr3et9vnWIsw1pMeBQj0M3Dc4/s1600-h/top1.jpg"><img style="WIDTH: 98px; HEIGHT: 146px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5399640330090321586" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEixOKTjZhBCuFrMresDLG1wIGm_jKsjRnj9AXZBFGWSm50a94R8hNJn6IE4etCBlP5tywXeCDKzz2WUse6D8JG08nFrF8hQNTOCmavPyA5sAQBAkJs6K0Lr3et9vnWIsw1pMeBQj0M3Dc4/s320/top1.jpg" /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhxg-R9_MkIQqtRBsDH5RPTth5gSOVd0G1SRrYYoxbohKxSijg0dJwTIz1_72sh5YVideRWgXkgyZe1JegDyyNdTOo5mOFfLNh3ffSTBwUdxHZxGqKJvm5usKrDOSGx1SmI9HLXLSqzdTY/s1600-h/top2.jpg"><img style="WIDTH: 97px; HEIGHT: 151px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5399640466258168562" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhxg-R9_MkIQqtRBsDH5RPTth5gSOVd0G1SRrYYoxbohKxSijg0dJwTIz1_72sh5YVideRWgXkgyZe1JegDyyNdTOo5mOFfLNh3ffSTBwUdxHZxGqKJvm5usKrDOSGx1SmI9HLXLSqzdTY/s320/top2.jpg" /></a>
I like these tops
That is all on the clothing front.. for now :-)
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<p>I really want to move into a new state, anywhere but Ohio! Warmer would be nice. Any ideas?
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Because I love cooking and my knives are pretty flimsy.. i want the Ronco knive set
<a href="https://www.ronco.com/knives/Default.aspx?source=google-knives">https://www.ronco.com/knives/Default.aspx?source=google-knives</a>
Because I love to read I want my bookshelf to have the following books:
Dan Brown ~ Lost Symbol
P. C. Cast ~ Tempted; Hunted; Untamed; Chosen; Betrayed and Marked
Kelley Armstrong ~ Frostbitten; Summoning; Living with the dead; No Humans Involved; Haunted; Industrial Magic and Dime Store Magic
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiBzieFB3uSsSB2hheG-ZqgkJP1U7Yr2bdZ6TChwxHWPmY73CoLlEWdKKbRuxKobWg01KuU19ICzYMK1ESQA-U4k0o3ZFaYJJKY4zY-_TIkIey4ZJV1FtW3IGJ9yzKMHy6XCDmICFEe-5Y/s1600-h/desk.jpg"><img style="WIDTH: 215px; HEIGHT: 215px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5399650803483798658" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiBzieFB3uSsSB2hheG-ZqgkJP1U7Yr2bdZ6TChwxHWPmY73CoLlEWdKKbRuxKobWg01KuU19ICzYMK1ESQA-U4k0o3ZFaYJJKY4zY-_TIkIey4ZJV1FtW3IGJ9yzKMHy6XCDmICFEe-5Y/s320/desk.jpg" /></a> This desk is very practical for me. I like being orgainized and at 100 bucks it isnt a bad price either.
A nice soft comfortable rocking chair.
As my list grows and my wants come to me I will add more or take away as I get them. Let's see how much I can accomplish :-)Mnemosynehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14220396236890461017noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4390905031961029343.post-43901071286872788372009-11-02T00:23:00.002-05:002009-11-02T01:50:58.165-05:00Missing You<p>Missing you </p><p>My heart aches within from missing you My lips long for the feel of kissing you Right now all I need is to gently touch your skin To look into yoru eyes from deep within Just one warm embrace Just to look upon your face From the one I love so much If I could gaze upon your smile For even jsut a little while To know that you miss me too As I am laying here, crying for you To hear the sound of your breath Knowing you didnt really leave To see you walk up to me Then embrace you tenderly To just be with the one who has sent my heart reeling And brought about this down pour of emotions and feeling I've told you many thoughts that weren't borrowed or bought And in a lifetime, who would have thought That I have found someone was meant just for me I can't explain the magic or why this should be But there is something I know for certain That this just ain't over till the down falls the final curtain For I've seen angel and I want you to know It's my choice to make, I'll never let you go. Don't know what life holds, maybe there is no reason or rhyme To think you may be mine all of the time And though I can't touch yiou and now we are apart My love, you will forever dwell so deep with my soul and heart.</p>Mnemosynehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14220396236890461017noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4390905031961029343.post-70581811860007426372009-11-02T00:07:00.002-05:002009-11-02T00:23:43.960-05:00WishingHours feel like days, the memories fill my mind. My heart laying before me in a million pieces as my tears fall down upon the papers that I started writing on. All the words are blurred all the i's dotted with tears. I miss my love myheart my all and I can only sit and wonder why I lost the one I truly belong to. What have I done, where do I go? A love so strong and pure and true and real is gone. I have once again failed at being the one. I hold true to dreams that one day she will return to me. Tell me she loves me that I am hers and she is mine. I sit and think about all the plans we made for when it is our time and I cry, I sit and think about all we have gone through and I cry, I can't stop, I have tried. Her love is forever embedded on my soul. I feel her, I breathe her, I love her.
Wishing
As I look out at the majestic sky
As tears fall from eyes
I know you and I were meant to be
I only wish I could make you see
How much your love means to me
I wish I could walk up to you
And speak the words lovers do
But now I sit here sad and blue
Wishing that I could be with youMnemosynehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14220396236890461017noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4390905031961029343.post-13766859210737537592009-10-30T16:45:00.002-04:002009-10-30T16:52:50.955-04:00Heart Soul Body MindI give to you my heart
I give it to you freely
For this is only a start
In return for the love you gave me
I give to you soul
I give it with out demand
For you mended me two fold
And kept ahold of my hand
I give to you my body
Oh how your touch melts me
Never feeling shoddy
Pleasures roll over me like waves in the sea
I give to you mind
You opened it like a book
Your love I'll never confine
To think, it started with one lookMnemosynehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14220396236890461017noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4390905031961029343.post-66776848146696430152009-10-22T23:33:00.004-04:002009-10-23T01:01:21.722-04:00My dearest loveSometimes I cry when I am happy
I laugh when I am scared
I'm quiet when I am at peace
or go crazy when nothing is wrong
Sometimes I am extra sappy
I come forward with emotions bared
I sigh with a happy release
Knowing all was right all along
I know I drive you crazy
At times you want to scream
I'm as gentle as can be
Loving you as you love me
Never let my love seem hazey
You are my perfect dream
Just say you will forever love me
Knowing this will pass, you'll see
I have my moments when things
Overwhelm and consume my mind
Sometimes only I can understand
Sometimes only I can make it stop
I can never be a puppet on strings
Or walk around being blind
even as the waves hit the sand
Forever know my love for you i'll never swap
Just bare with me and believe in me
Knowing the moments never mean
my love for you has changed or faded
It's a lot stronger today than the day before
Smile at me and hold my hand, you'll see
this feeling won't last long and all will be supreme
I never want you to feel lost or jaded
I will forever love you each day more and more.
I am your baby girl
you are my papa bear
we stay side by side
hand in hand
Facing the world
this love isnt to share
Yes I know I have my stubborn pride
But I will never stop loving my husband.
Baby, forgive my foolish self. I know I drive you crazy and for the first time since forever, you admitted that I fustrate the hell out of you and when you said it out loud... I had to stop and not say anything because, I thought "oh god, It's gone to far" and it scared me to think what that meant so I didnt try to think on it. I know I have really high emotions as it is and sometimes they are a lot higher. Sometimes when I say I am okay, and I may not really be but I know in my heart it is only my emotions getting the better of me and I dont need for you to feel bad or get upset over it, and i know i just need a few minutes and maybe a little holding and cuddling to get over it. I love you and I never want you to feel bad for having a life or being busy or or or... we dont do that, we never have. Just need for you to trust me when I say I am okay because if it was something really upsetting me we would talk, but if it is just my hormones then I dont want to worry you over it. I am so very sorry love. I dont want you to feel like you hve to walk on eggshells with me. It really isn't like that. I love you baby, my sweet sweet papa bear. Sleep well knowing I am holding you all night close to me feeling your love and your kisses on my skin.
I am now and forever, your baby girl
loving you
loving me
FAAD NMW
yours xoxoMnemosynehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14220396236890461017noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4390905031961029343.post-46937613406956761342009-10-15T16:23:00.000-04:002009-10-15T16:23:56.002-04:00Starting Over: Serious...Domestic Violence<a href="http://steeltrapped.blogspot.com/2009/04/seriousdomestic-violence.html">Starting Over: Serious...Domestic Violence</a>Mnemosynehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14220396236890461017noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4390905031961029343.post-58244442624002002742009-10-14T03:13:00.003-04:002009-10-14T15:58:21.441-04:00You're My Best Friend Lyrics ~ Tim McGrawFor you baby, all for you. (Even thought it is not something I wrote, I changed it for you love)
<div align="justify">I never had anyone I could count on Ive been let down so many times I was tired of hurtin So tired of searchin til you walked into my life It was a feelin Id never known And for the first time I didnt feel alone <strong>Youre more than a lover There could never be another To make me feel the way you do Oh we just get closer I fall in love all over Everytime I look at you I dont know where Id be Without you here with me Life with you makes perfect sense You're my best friend my best friend</strong>, oh yeah <strong>You stand by me And you believe in me Like nobody ever has When my world goes crazy You're right there to save me </strong>You make me see how much I have And I still tremble When we touch And oh the look in your eyes When we make love You're more than a lover There could never be another To make me feel the way you do Oh we just get closer I fall in love all over Everytime I look at you And I dont know where Id be Without you here with me Life with you makes perfect sense You're my best friend You're my best friend You're more than a lover There could never be another To make me feel the way you do Oh we just get closerI fall in love all over Everytime I look at you And I dont know where Id be Without you here with me Life with you makes perfect sense You're my best friend You're my best friend (my best friend) You're my best friend (my best friend)</div>Mnemosynehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14220396236890461017noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4390905031961029343.post-78843985521536006992009-10-14T02:52:00.004-04:002009-10-14T15:51:11.974-04:00Overcome...by fear, every now and then, I feel it start in the pit of my stomach
by fear, as it slowly moves upward, I lose a breath here and there
by fear, as my heart begins to slow its beating, as if being strangled
by fear, of words that just come out wrong or at the wrong time and my sensitive self goes right into fear of unknown.
by love, your touch begins to sooth the trembling in my stomach
by love, your touch begins to calm me and I can breathe again
by love, your touch begins to soothe my soul and my heart beats steady once more
by love, of words you speak to me in such a way that all my scares and fears melt away
by love, your love, the love that has cared and cherished me this past year
by love, your love, you always seem to know when to rub my heart a little more.
There is no denying that what we have we never expected. What do we do? Where do we go? How can we make this easy, can it be easy? How can I live a day with out hearing from you. I am so spoiled. I've spent one night too many away from you, it scares me to think I have to again.
I am sorry I am not that strong, I am sorry I didnt run from this. Instead I held on and I embraced it, your love, our life.. and what a wonderful joyous life we have with so much love and respect for each other.
I love you, FAAD darlin, never wavering, never straying, only growing stronger and deeper for nobody but YOU.
Yours xoxoMnemosynehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14220396236890461017noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4390905031961029343.post-58659630032271512432009-09-25T13:00:00.003-04:002009-09-25T13:08:18.567-04:00A promise and A KissWhen I close my eyes at night
Softly whispering into the air
Even though you are out of my sight
Take a breath and know I am there
There is no distance to far for me
My love is strong and true
No ocean to wide and neither the sea
Can keep me from loving you
My heart is yours I promise this
My love will never fade or end
My promise to you sealed with a kiss
For not only my lover but my best friend
My darlin heart,
There are many time when through out my day you are on my mind and in my thoughts. As I walk down the street or do my shopping, I always wonder how we would be together in public. I dream of you holding my hand and kissing me every chance you get. I think about laying with you at night and being the last thing I see, then to wake in the morning and see your gorgeous face. I dream of the day when it will never end, when I am with you and never have to leave. We have a great love story building, one for the books to be sure. I've never loved so hard and strong as I love you my darling. You are not only my lover, my husband my companion, but my best friend, my other. You are the half that makes me whole the one I belong to, I can not fathom not having you some how or some way in my life every day. Please I ask this of you now, stay mine, stay forever, keep me always and know that my love for you will always be, for you only.
Love your baby girl
your devoted wife
MeMnemosynehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14220396236890461017noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4390905031961029343.post-54843250837962238212009-09-21T20:29:00.002-04:002009-09-21T20:50:45.061-04:00You
The one
I love
With all
I
am
I
am
all
yours
Never have I ever thought I could love somebody so much as I love you. All I wish to do is make you happy. To try and be all you need. To be enough for you, to be able to satisfy your needs. I know our time is not now, but it will be and I hold on to that, close to my heart. I love you, wth every fiber of my being, I am in love with you. So very much in love wiht you.Mnemosynehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14220396236890461017noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4390905031961029343.post-39758941680504402412009-07-25T01:16:00.003-04:002009-07-25T01:18:07.799-04:00You....are the reason I smile. Turn the lights down low, turn the music on and lets sway slowly together as the moon cascades across the night sky and our shadows move <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">rhythmically</span> together with us. Our love surrounds our space as we entwine our bodies together, dancing, loving and being...Us..it always comes back to what matters most. Us.Mnemosynehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14220396236890461017noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4390905031961029343.post-567336119249863762009-07-25T01:04:00.002-04:002009-07-25T01:06:04.561-04:00Love NotesI love you. You are the air I breathe, the tears I shed, the love I feel and the love I give. You are everything I need and want. My heart, mind body and soul are yours. Through all our life, no matter the situation, I love you and I always will.
I am now and forever,
your baby girl
xoxoMnemosynehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14220396236890461017noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4390905031961029343.post-7003841123162558372009-07-13T13:16:00.006-04:002009-07-17T19:28:16.643-04:00Dear TimmyDear Timmy,
Today is July 13, 2009. I got the phone call last night telling me you are gone. I miss you. You were like an older brother to me. You and I had talked numerous times about everything, life love death.. and now you are gone. You promised me you would be alright that you would call me and we were suppose to have coffee today. We should be sitting at star bucks right now drinking coffee and talking. When you smiled you lit up the whole room. Your laugh was contagious and your heart enormous.. and yourgift has been taken away from those who loved you very much. I will miss you my dear friend, and I know where ever you are you are with out pain and you are watching over me like you always did.
<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CRyKg5xMaXA">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CRyKg5xMaXA</a> ~ Go rest high on that Mountain
<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yb2NW3QfonI">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yb2NW3QfonI</a> ~ it's so hard to say good bye
Love always,
Your friend
MeMnemosynehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14220396236890461017noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4390905031961029343.post-18538738303005097452009-06-23T00:45:00.003-04:002009-06-23T01:07:45.191-04:00New meaning to spicing up your sex lifeWanted to post a previous blog from an old account onto the new site.. Enjoy
<span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">OK</span>, so you're walking down a main street in your city..it's a bit busy today but you can't help but to over hear a conversation that just makes you laugh so hard..It goes something like this...
Girl one: "I just <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">don't</span> know..the sex seems so boring lately"
Girl two: "Have you tried spicing it up?"
Girl one: "No he wont use food during sex"
In my head "<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">OMFG</span> is she serious..laughing my ass off!!!!" I really believe this is not what the first girl meant..but then I started to think...<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">hmm</span> what spices would you use to "spice" up your sex life? So i started investigating other things on the web..not those magazines who say they talked to 100 men and this is what they want..<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">pfft</span> whatever..if more men really wanted that...then more women would be happy with the way they look and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">wouldn't</span> try so hard to please a man..such a load of crap really.. but <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">ok</span>..here we go..
Cinnamon given to a man is suppose to make his sperm taste sweet...<span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">supposedly</span> making us girls want to give oral more often..have not tried this because I am single in <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">RL</span> and wont do this on a random guy..but supposedly he has to eat cinnamon a few times during the week before this takes effect...
Nutmeg is suppose to boost the male libido, according to research at <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">Aligarh</span> University in India..so if he lacks sexual desire...feed him some nutmeg..maybe a glass of eggnog sprinkled with nutmeg 5 times a week..i <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">don't</span> get it either...but it's gotta be cheaper than the little blue pill eh? Or if he likes curry..it's an <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">ingredient</span> in curry so cook up a nice dinner laced with nutmeg and enjoy the effect.
If ya search google for sex and spices you get some very odd topics..so I suggest you to read em and see if any strike your fancy..who knows..maybe there is an <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">ingredient</span> out that that will make him a God at making love and maybe...just maybe...you won't have to fake it the next time around..Mnemosynehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14220396236890461017noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4390905031961029343.post-48109335612826989512009-06-23T00:37:00.001-04:002009-06-23T00:50:26.383-04:00Finding yourselfSometimes in life things happen and you have no control over them, but when it happens you take a step back and look at your life from an outside point of view..It's amazing what you find when you do that. Every now and then it takes a life changing experience to make that happen. When you do, you look at yourself in a different way..and you think..where did I go? Where have I been? Why has it taken so long to get back to me? Then you realize...life isn't about pleasing everybody you meet..but pleasing yourself..making you happy like you use to before drama started to break you down. You make the decision right there and then..this time around it's gonna be you who is happy...and you remember...those who mind don't matter those who matter don't mind.
A few favorite quotes I have heard over time..
If I am not worth the wooing I damn sure ain't worth the winning.
Too much of a good thing can be wonderful
I'm selfish, impatient, and a lil' insecure. I make mistakes. I am out of control and at times hard to handle but if you can't take me at my WORST then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my BEST!!
Never regret anything that made you smile.
Love like you never been hurt, smile like you are up to something, live like there is no tomorrow and enjoy each day as if you will live forever.
*~*Never give up on yourself...always believe in you..if you don't then nobody else will. You are your own biggest fan, love yourself before anybody else and know that with a little bit of faith, you can move moutains...*~*Mnemosynehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14220396236890461017noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4390905031961029343.post-67793543972644074852009-06-22T23:35:00.004-04:002009-06-23T01:21:05.047-04:00Fears, phobias and the humor of it looking from the out side inOkay okay, in my old blog I had posted a blog that joked about fears and over coming them. I will copy that post here.. but I have to say this..
I am terrified of centipedes, they are unnatural and gross and freak me out! I am very serious here.. there is no way in the world that I can ever have sex with those things around me.. OMG eeww eeww..
I bring this up because the other night I was sitting outside talking to a neighbor and one crossed over my foot and I screamed and told her it was time for me to go in the house.. I HATE THOSE THINGS!
Here is the post::
Ok so I was watching an episode of Monk (<a href="http://www.usanetwork.com/series/monk/">http://www.usanetwork.com/series/monk/</a>) and if you know anything about Monk..you know he has tons of fears. So I got to thinking, how would I over come one of my biggest fears? I figure I would do something I absolutely love doing while doing something I fear. Lose you yet? Ok check this out....
My biggest fear..heights. I am scared to death of heights. I see it on TV when they do the shot off the side of the building my knees get weak. I see a shot out the side of an airplane I get sick to my stomach. I am that afraid of heights...But what do I love doing more than being afraid of heights? Why sex of course. I love sex especially when the man is good at it. Oh yes ladies, we all know men like that..the kind who rocked your world and every time you think of him you get all flabergasted and could cream jus thinking about it.(YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE) So I figure it like this maybe I can talk the owners of the tallest building in my city into letting me go up on the roof top and have sex, I would be able to conquer my fear of heights and have an orgasm..and who knows maybe the best sex in my life!!!!
So I tell a few people my plans and I get questions..what if you have a fear of spiders and snakes? I don't see having sex in a snake pit of spider web..what you do is get a glass box big enough for 2 with snakes and spiders crawling on the outside of the box...you are perfectly safe from them..
Yes incase you can't tell..if you really enjoy sex and it is done right, it may help you cure your fears. Or I just wanted a reason to write about things and include sex in it.
My friend asked what about if you fear clowns? You have sex with a clown? No way...having sex with a clown is just creepy and besides..they taste funny if you give them oral and kissing them is just odd.. they wear more lipstick than you do. Then you get their make up all over your face then you go down to give them oral and you pull back and their multicolored and then you start laughing and ruin the whole thing...No to cure your fear of clowns you dont have sex with them...you have sex around them...have clown sheets, clown pictures I wouldnt have a real clown around though...that is creepy too.
If you are afraid of it and really put some thought into it, you can probably have sex to cure it.Mnemosynehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14220396236890461017noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4390905031961029343.post-9049995126739661232009-06-20T00:57:00.001-04:002009-06-20T01:31:12.546-04:00For my pal...smilesI cannot ease your aching heart,
Nor take your pain away;
But let me stay and take your hand
And walk with you today.
I'll listen when you need to talk,
I'll wipe away your tears;
I'll share your worries when they come,
I'll help you face your fears.
I'm here and I will stand by you
,On each hill you have to climb;
So take my hand, let's face the world...
And live just one day at a time.
You're not alone, for I'm still here,
I'll go that extra mile;
And when your grief is easier,
I'll help you learn to smile!Mnemosynehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14220396236890461017noreply@blogger.com0